Reality or Wishful Thinking?

Change with the wind instead of fighting for a breath of air.....A gentle breeze touches my skin and it is a comforting and serene feeling.

Inside, as I think of the dreams that I have yet to fulfill. This day I feel a sense of certain knowing that I am going to be alright. Vibrations of a different energy are buzzing around ...Maybe the closing of old wounds..acceptance of the inevidable or maybe just that the long road that I have been on has finally come to the fork that I have been waiting to see..
.To close the door of those hauntings things that have carried for too long.
The detachment of old scars that I have held like a torch bright for anyone to see and the emptyness that came along with those feelings..they are deminishing.
At last....to be able to breathe and find love in my heart again...
The feeling of closeness and knowing who you are....what you want...what you stand for...what you live for....In every exhale...What you reap is what you will sow. Acceptance has been a very large challenge for me personally. I have had my heart broke too many times to count [those of you reading me...411 by one man] Cried so many tears that I know to fill an ocean. But what has changed is me...I had to learn a valuable lesson. I have learned and I am willing to proceed with the next step in my path.
What you give to those in your life...Tenderness and love without conditions or without alterior motives. One thing that I have learned is not to compromise all of yourself ...well, I mean not to compromise your value, self respect, honor. Once an important teacher and friend told me that once you compromise the very thing that you hold dear. You will soon be followed with the resentment and begin to lose who you really are. I speak from experience. I let myself fall and the outcome was most hurtful . At the time, I felt as though I would gain by giving into something that wasn't who I was, but felt that is what ~they wanted and of course I wanted them to be happy. They were my world and I thought that I was their world. I was wrong.

To know and understand when truth looks into your eyes. Honest, real love and affection to flow without hesitation. To love someone without hesitation and let down the wall that prevents happiness to fill an empty heart.
To hide behind a shield is not love...Open your heart to all that you may have but are too afraid to risk stems from old wounds and scars that need to be let go.

To closing those haunting fears that have left me so empty for so long are beginning to shed.
As I look behind me and see the scales of my past and the weight attached to it carrying that
torch of the victim and the helplessness that associates with it. Somehow, I had lost who I
am and what I stand for. Letting someone rule my heart when I should not have ...a lesson not
to forget too soon. I had forgotten how much I have to really offer to those who mean something to me. Wrapped up in a self destructive relationship that has not accomplished any of the
dreams and goals that I had hoped to attain. Once you learn and can accept one's flaws an
I begin to realize that the fear of letting go once you have accepted what is the inevitable.
Pride, is what has kept me in this enclosed box of blackness and I refused to see what was right in front of me all along.
have seen and has been screaming for me to listen.